- Fate, how to live? There is emptiness in my chest, and fragments of my soul are scattered throughout my body...
- No one will glue them together except you yourself.
- But how? Inside I have only a bottomless abyss of hopelessness!
- Remember, you’ve had this emptiness before. But you filled it with... New dreams! And the heart began to beat again!
- But... Where do the old ones go? Unfulfilled hopes? They have to go somewhere to make room for new ones!
- They are going nowhere. You're leaving!
I found myself in a small wooden boat. Water splashed through the thinned holes and immediately flowed out. For some reason I was sure that the water was almost icy. I stood in this boat, there were no oars, it somehow floated, but I didn’t fall or even sway.
It was not clear where I was, nor what time of day it was - the usual gray sky. It even seemed a little cloudy, but it was neither cold nor hot. It was not clear whether I was about to get hot or about to get cold, but neither feeling overtook me. With this “just about there” expectation of mine, the boat continued its journey forward. And I finally stopped focusing on my feelings and began to look around. After all, a few hundred meters from me, on both sides, it turns out there were green banks! And something was moving there! So small! Animals or something?
- Fate, what is it? - I asked somewhere into the distance. Quietly, as if she was talking to herself.
- You will see if you want...
A huge pair of binoculars appeared in my hand. Her words didn’t make me happy at all, but curiosity didn’t let me think for long. I immediately aimed the lenses into the distance.
These were girls of all ages. For some reason they stood almost motionless and looked at me. Everyone was dressed in the brightest clothes. There was an astronaut girl, an actress in a floor-length red dress with a fan, a Brazilian Carnival dancer, and then I saw an Amazon girl and a pirate, even a business lady from Wall Street... They all seem so close! But...
— Do you want to enlarge the picture? — she grinned, and I thought it was a good idea.
Every one of them looked like me! Only at different ages! Each of them looked at the age at which I dreamed about it! So I dreamed of being a Carnival dancer at the age of fifteen, and she looks fifteen! And I wanted to be a pirate when I was a child, so here she is, a child!
- These are your dreams. You move on, and they, unfulfilled, remain here. — Fate explained
Here they all, almost simultaneously, turned around and went deeper into the forest, all except one. I looked through binoculars.
- This is the one you yourself won’t let go of.
And I saw myself with two children from him, a boy and a girl.
My breathing stopped, and my heart started beating right in my throat, is it still beating? After all, it was he who broke my soul into small fragments, trampled, humiliated, and didn’t even explain why!
- Until you let go, they will stand here. And neither your boat will go further, nor new plans nor hopes, nor a new you will be born... Decide for yourself!
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